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Anon T./AnonT/Anante
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Hello. Thanks for dropping by my deviantArt page! :heart:
I went under the username ~lilette from 2004 to 2013.

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I've got to find a way to do this...I mean I know a good number of artists who can do this so why can't I?

Let me explain:

I began to work full time again in early June. While it has brought stability and progress to the professional part of my life, it has also taken a good chunk of my personal art time. My goals to draw this and that are threatened by this nine to five time frame that often spills over to nine to ten hour work days. I come home eager to browse deviantART and check updates on my online comics but I can't find it in me to actually sketch from Monday to Friday. I have ideas that attack me even while I'm at work and want to get started on them right away but come the time I can finally sit at home after commuting home...

Ugh. It's a challenge. A weekly, draining challenge. 'Cause then it's a struggle that continues into my weekends where I am trying to balance my time to do everything I can't do during the weekdays.

I miss being unemployed only for the fact that I miss drawing constantly. And that one fact is a BIG factor to me. I miss it a lot. I love being able to make the minimum loan payments every month and starting meager savings and not worrying about money. I hate not having the energy or time to draw what I want.

Will this get better? I've had this dilemma with all my previous full time positions in the past. I always thought maybe it would change later on. When is 'later on' going to happen? Maybe I'm putting too much into a simple hobby. It's a hobby I love to bits and I like to put a lot of effort into all my endeavors...

Feeling discouraged. Especially since it's Sunday and tomorrow a new work week starts. Which means my no-drawing-period starts. 

I'm feeling trapped from Monday to Friday.
Feeling overwhelmed Saturday to Sunday.
I think it's safe to say I'm frustrated. Every. Day.

Sorry, again, for this rant.

If you've read through it, thanks for having the patience to do so.

:heart: Anante

  • Mood: Defeated
  • Listening to: Sad Wings of Destiny album by Judas Priest

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:iconcamada:
camada Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2014  Professional General Artist
Thanks for the :+fav:! :la:
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rlkirkland Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for taking time to read and favor "Safety of the Night".
Processing painful childhood fears and memories are helpful at times.
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Anante Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome! I'm trying to rediscover the poetry and written work here on deviantart and I enjoyed reading some of the pieces in your gallery. Safety of the Night really hooked me in. :)
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JeffTalbot Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the Favourite :)
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Anante Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome!
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